cant believe its already 1+
got carried away chatting w mina. yea haha so funny..we just went on and on..were on quite a roll. bad bad day..thought a lot..on thinking mode. i conclude that people are scary, period. you really never know what they think about you. that very sweet smile could be a fake. they could tell you that they love you but the next minute its all 'shes so irritating, get rid of her, lets go out without her' they could tell you youre so skinny and then next thing secretly laugh at the fact that your tummy ws protruding as you were slumped on the chair and also, that youre flat. when people look at me, i feel like screaming, dont judge me, i cant help it if im not pretty. im born with so many imperfections..stop pointing that out to your friends. im wearing whatever i feel like that day. stop saying that i dont look nice in it. its mean. and yea, im talking about myself too. cos i cant stop bitching. and i feel so bad. but thats the way it is. and i dont understand why myself. okay i sound like a mad bitch ranting. actually, nothing happened. just wild random thoughts. haha. madness la. i miss tings.
and i hate cj. as in, i didnt even know it myself till the results came out. i really dont want to be wearing factory worker uniform. ok first three months no needa wear. but still. its traumatising. ( all the nightmare stories ive been hearing ) ok maybe if i put more than 2 choices, i wouldnt end up there. but the thing is, i hate all jcs cos i dont wanna go jc at all. not as in i wanna go poly or anything. i just wanna stay in st nicks. not that i love the school that i want to retain but i prefer secondary school life. ahh whatever.
schools starting in a few weeks.
and i cant help
but feel SO incomplete without tings.
what the hell.
im all alone in a place i hate.
ok i think i dont hate cj in particular ( I THINK ) bt i just hate going to a new environment and seeing new faces and changing and adapting. its redundant. and ok, i also dont wanna be in cj, for certain obvious reasons..
AND i just went shopping..they werent impulsive acts though. haha i really really like my body mist and volcom clutch. and i really really considered and weighed the pros and cons. ok my ass. i bought them cos i like them. but still. there were MANY other stuff at raffles city..i really love that place. actually, ive always loved raffles city. haha. and city link. mm. the point is there were many other wow stuff but i didnt purchase them ok. so. did exercise some self control after all.
SIGH. felt a lot better after shopping..as always..
BUT now..im upset all over again.
shit.
im broke la.
BROKE. but nxt week's arriving..haha. so nvm.
mm loving oceanus. totally.
and im also loving that volcom wallet..and also that ozoc wallet..the butterfly on it ws so pretty..and that necklace thing..crap. steph dont roll your eyes.